Simple Yet Complicated

paranoia leads you to create a problem that
shouldn’t have existed in the first place. it leads you to hurt yourself for no
valid reason at all.

this is what triggered me to write my previous
blog entitled “a disturbing feeling.” i was so engrossed of thinking
all the negative things that could possibly happen. it even led me to hurt
myself — not physically but emotionally.

we just have to learn that not all people cannot
be trusted. some of them can be. some of them are worth our trust and even
worth our heart. we must always remember that the man up above would never
leave us to fall. we just have to trust Him.

it’s good to think positive. i’m not saying that
we become insensitive to bad signs. i’m just emphasizing the fact that too much
paranoia is awful. no one could be blamed for the suffering caused by being
paranoid but ourselves.

stay calm. think good. trust God.

God bless!

i just have so many questions in my mind right
now. i don’t even know where to start. i wonder if what i’m feeling right now
is even right. is it even justifiable? i mean, do i have the right to question
things? events? whatsoever?… gosh, i’m even using the word “right”
repeatedly. what is wrong with me? or is it really me? is something wrong with
me? maybe it’s not me. maybe the problem lies on the people i put so much
trust.

there’s nothing wrong with trusting somebody so
much, right? i mean, one should give a person a chance to prove his
trustworthiness. but what if you feel like he’s not worth it? should you still
continue to give him a chance?

anyway, this blog is not everything about trust.
i just wanna let it out! i just wanna let what’s eating me up this past few
hours out! i’ve been trying to contact a friend. but it seems to me, he/she is
out of reach. i wonder if he/she’s ok. i don’t know. i even wonder if i should
be worried about his/her welfare. is it his/her welfare i should be worried
about? or is it something else?

goodness! i just don’t like the state i’m in to
right at this very hour. i feel clueless!?! this feeling disturbs me. it sucks.